Saturday, August 16, 2008

An ideal day



Some brief highlights (as I am tired) on my ideal day. First, mission accomplished. It was a good day. I was remembered and celebrated and surprised and delighted. The fire sale is on--it will be a very modest showing, not unlike the readership of this blog. Two, perhaps three folks will show up. It will hopefully be a decent time for everyone but it would be better with more energy to feed from. IBC may or may not show and he's being a bit weird. I don't like when I'm not able to figure out what's going on. I think I shall stop talking to him. I can't shake the feeling that we aren't actually friends. I have some beyond friends attraction to him but I expect that to wane as it isn't really based in anything real between the two of us. But I'm sensitive to being the patsy in a relationship-I don't want to be the one that anyone suffers just be be nice. I'd sooner remove myself than be that person. I'm sure I need to be willing to be foolish for love but since IBC is not likely to be 'the one,' I think I'm okay if I don't go out of my way to talk to him.

IBC distraction aside, it was a wonderful day. Happy Birthday to me. And my birthday twin (another subject, another time).

1 comment:

Alice said...

Happy birthday to you! I am just now going through these posts, and I apologize for not being able to make it to your party (I hope what's-his-name told you that). You're greatly missed, even if I feel like you aren't totally gone.